A change

Oh my. Things have changed so much since I last posted something on here, I barely remember who I was back then. To be quite honest, life has straightened itself out. Sure, there have been some pretty bad days, but then, what would life be without those?
My best friend and I have worked everything out. Nothing is ever awkward or sad. I love every moment with her. I spend almost all my free time with her, since she doesn't go to my school anymore, and we both work. Luckily, we now have the same job! I LOVE hanging out with her. I feel so at home and comfortable around her. There's no judgement, or lies. Just friendship. And it is a positively beautiful thing.
I have also made new friends. I realized I was a mean, unwelcoming person. So I changed. I smiled more, laughed more, and hates less. And it has really been working out for me! During my time of some being so close to my best friend that I didn't want any other friends, and my time of being so far away i didn't want anyone at all, I forgot about everyone else. I forgot about all my other friends who have been so good to me through the years. So I changed.
People like me more now. People talk to me more now. I enjoy people's company now. I realized what a great friend someone was, and now, I consider him to be my absolute closest friend, other than my best friend of course. Today, was one of those bad days though. And I didn't talk to him all day. I avoided him, and I made a point to ignore him and talk to other people when he was around. Do you know how he reacted? He asked for forgiveness and brought me a bag of Skittles. Yet, being the stubborn person I am, I refused to budge. Now i realize, my day was probably so terrible BECAUSE I wasn't talking to him. He makes me laugh and see the good things in life. when you take that out of the equation of the day, you are really left with nothing!
So tomorrow, it will be my turn to apologize. Because I realize, pushing people away is never the answer. I need to focus on letting people into my life, and not being scared to allow them to stay there. Life is good. And I should share it with others :)