Wish I knew the future

But of course, I don't. I think it is funny how I find my mind working. I want one thing, so I do something completely not even close to that thing that I think will eventually get me back to the thing I want. If everything works out the way it is supposed to. BIG if. But the thing is, I plan out everything! I can be an impulsive person at times, but generally, I know exactly when and where and why and how I am going to do something. So when I come up with some genius plan to somehow get me closer to what I want, I go for it, with an idea in my head of exactly how things will go.
Now for once, I am thinking ahead of time of the consequences. And actually writing them down instead of just pushing them out of my head, only for them to return and say "I told you so!" Bad things could come from this. I could lose a friend. More than one. I could regret it. I could think I was stupid. I could once again find myself asking myself why I do the things I do. But than again, I could also feel really great about what I did. I could not regret it at all. It could work out the way I want it to. I could come out of it unscathed. I feel like this time, the chances are truly 50/50.
I know, in the past, I have done these things and complained and whined and groaned about how dumb I am, and here I am again, doing something i am iffy about. But this one is different. haha, classic line! But really. A lot of the factors are much different, and much more in my favor. So I actually feel pretty good about this. I'm confident things will be okay, and if something goes wrong, I doubt it will cause any terrible lasting effect!