Finally!

I know I shouldn't be so pleased. I know I should be feeling disappointed. I know I should be ashamed of myself. But I'm not. I'm proud! I FINALLY got away from all the expectations that people have set from me. Well, maybe not all of them, but I at least tore away from one. My parents of course assume I am a genius and can handle all the hard classes because my sister did. Well I can't. Well I could, but as previously mentioned, I honestly don't want to push myself that hard. So I did it! I dropped my Honors class! Why this is so amazing? It is hard to explain. I am used to living my life according to what people want me to do. I made myself who people thought I was. But I am NOT that person! And even though I am moving down, I don't care. I am not walking that perfect line that everyone wants me to! I am making a decision for myself! Sure, my parents have to sign the paper saying it is okay for my to move to the average class instead of the smart kids class, but still, I decided to! I made that step! I was brave enough to face my parents and tell them that I CAN'T do everything they expect me to.
And they were okay with it.
They weren't mad
They weren't judgemental
They didn't even put up a fight
They accepted it
Like I think I always knew they would
But I was afraid to find out for sure
And now I did
And no, this doesn't mean i am going to start slacking to see how far I can push this whole acceptance thing. I am not going to stop trying my best. I am still going to strive for good grades, but I will be getting those good grades in a class I am comfortable in. A class that I don't feel will leave me stressed every day. You know why?
Because i DON'T have to go to a fancy college
I DON'T have to be just like my sister
I DON'T have to live by anyone's standards but my own
And today, for the first time, I proved that to myself.