I am so sick of people assuming things. Like my mother. She tells me that I am bored in school, and I need to challenge myself. How does SHE know? I think the problem is that everyone thinks they can "safely assume" things. Why would they think that? You don't have any reason to safely assume that I am bored in school. Sure, some subjects are easy for me, because I enjoy them. History? The material may be boring but I'm sure not bored out of lack of something to do! Science? Completely interesting! And incredibly hard for me to understand! I'm not bored in that class! Math sure isn't boring! I have to pay close attention to get the grades I do. Sure, English is easy, and I could use a challenge there. But just because I get good grades doesn't mean I don't try.
I don't expect to be congratulated for every good grade I get, but I don't want it to be expected of me. I don't want everyone to assume that school is easy for me and I'm a genius. Because I'm not. I work hard for the grades I get. I don't just slide by and get As. I try for them. I do all the extra credit. I pay attention in class. Put me in harder classes, yeah, I will work harder because I will have to. Am I capable of getting the same grades? Honestly, I don't know. It sucks when you realize you aren't as smart as everyone thinks you are. It also sucks when nobody understands. Maybe, if people looked at other factors other than the grades on the paper. I just wish they looked past the As and saw the work behind them.
I don't want to get good grades and my parents say, well of course you did. I don't want to get a 100 on a hard test and my friends say, I'm not surprised. I don't want you to care about the grade, I want you to care about how hard I worked to get it. They just assume that you're great, and it is so unfair. Stop assuming! Because eventually I'm going to surprise you. You're not going to like it either. Just wait till I come home because I failed a test because I didn't have time to study. And when I tell you that, maybe you will realize that it all doesn't come as easily to me as you think.
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Are you part of some Asian family? Just kidding :) I can relate. I have always felt driven to do as much as I can as fast as I can without imperfection. Sadly it is not a reality. I might have learned more and retained more from college if I had structured my schedule and life in a less aggressive fashion. Even now I feel that pressure, but I resist!
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