Thursday, July 23, 2009

Money Money Money

I find myself wondering why I worry so much about what other people are doing. And I wonder why it matters so much to me how they spend their money. First of all, I know it is none of my business, and second of all, I'm sure I have better things to worry about! Money management is something that is very important to me. I have been taught the values of saving my money and earning what I get. I also understand that not everyone has this quality. Like one of my close friends for instance.
She is a spender. Boy is she is a spender. She got a check from work for 280 dollars and within three hours had spend over a hundred of it. One day later, she was down to twenty. It would have been fourty but I made her stow away twenty in her car for when she needed gas because I knew otherwise she would spend it! It bothers me to such an incredible amount that I actually get angry and sometimes yell at her.
The thing is, she doesn't spend it all on herself. She bought me a pedicure (which no matter how much she says I don't have to, I am GOING to pay her back) She bought her mom three shirts, she bought some of her coworkers Powerades and brought them to her work. She got her stepdad a cold drink because he was outside in the sun working. She probably spend over fifty percent of her money on other people. And she loves it.
So then I wonder, am I a bad person because I save up my money for things I want in the future instead of spending it today on things for other people? Is it wrong that I don't particularly want to buy people things? And, am I an incredibly horrible human being from discouraging her to do this? Well I know the answer to my last question. Yes.
It is not my problem how she chooses to spend her money. It is not my businesses who she wants to give it to. And yet, I can't help but clench my teeth a little. I can't stop myself from giving her a disapproving look, and I can't keep the thought that she is blowing all of her money pointlessly way to fast out of my mind. I should consider her to be a very special person. I mean, how great is it that she has such a giving spirit? I should respect the way she spends her money, not scowl about it!
I could try to do the same thing, but honestly, I don't want to. I want to not spend more than a few dollars here and there, and I want to save up my money. I want to pay people back for things and I expect to be paid back. It is amazing how controversial money can be. I have to not let it get in the way of my life though. I will deal with it how I want, and I am going to try my best to not care about how others choose to deal with it.

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